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Envy?

What’s up with people about jealousy?
IMO, there is so much different between “I’m so envious/I envy you” and “Do you envy me?/Are you envious?”!!

Well, the former is like you might see something and want to do or have but not necessarily really really want or have an urge to do/have it.   But, the latter is, IMO, like an insult esp from the people whom I count as “friends”.  We’re too old to do these thing, I think.   Seriously, would it be more satisfying to the asker if the answer is “YES, I’m envious.”

Helloooooooo … Do you even know me!???! Are we friends???

hmm .. maybe they don’t realize it’s not good thing to say to a friend. Or, I’m too serious about this?

PS. My response? “Should I be (envious)?”  heheh

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Posted by on December 13, 2008 in Life

 

Another year … to fight

Before the end of today, I’d like to thanks those who remember my cough25thcough birthday. wish you all the best. 🙂

 

I think this year should be a good year for me … I shall make it a good year (plus from prediction/zodiac etc next calendar year supposes to be a good year for me 😉 )

 

 

I mean … I should focus on good things in my life, be thankful for everything I have.

Bad, petty people did do and will still bother me, but I shouldn’t let it make my life miserable, right?

 

 

I think my resolution would be balance my personal life and work, find time to work out, and every once in a while do things that make me happy (more on this later).  These would be three things that I will try to make it possible.

 

[so sleepy — might edit some part later]

 

ขุ่นมัว

พักนี้ขุ่นมัวง่ายมากๆ .. ไม่ดีเลย

นอกจากถูกกระตุ้นง่าย .. ยังมีเรื่องมากระตุ้นอยู่เรื่อยๆอีกเนี่ยสิ เฮ้อ

1. family matters

2. A friend from the US just called to ask me to join our get together dinner .. sigh .. you’d probably have guessed whose name came up a couple of times.  Anyway, he seemed to know the break-up thingy (my guess he* probably told him? or not .. hmmm ) coz he mentioned certain somone’s name and said he* is busy then ask if I already get married and ask if I talk to him* and ask if I can told him* the place to meet.  hmm .. people hesitate to ask about this stuff directly, but I think he wanted to ask. lol 

Anyway, as a loser(?) as I am .. I did text him* a message about the meeting place, also said I won’t go coz I already have an arrangement.  hmmm ..

 
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Posted by on November 15, 2008 in Life

 

A song

a song is just a song .. no more no less .. just a song

 

 
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Posted by on November 10, 2008 in Life

 

Celebrating a year

Today (technically Nov 7th CST) marks a year of the first intent to call it quit … while I told him about our friend’s birthday party I just came back from.

Can’t describe the feeling of that moment .. probably due to the attempt to block it out and almost succeed.  And, I think it’s a benefit of NOT writing about “that feeling” over and over to remind myself to be misery blah blah blah. 

You know people say .. Someone or something just hurts you once, but you are the one who hurts yourself over and over with the PAST.

 

 Right now, writing this post I have almost no feeling toward it … however, it’s not a gaurantee that I will not occasionally feel bad about it.  But I can rest assure that I will be able to overcome it .. the worst was OVER .. a year ago.

 

 
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Posted by on November 7, 2008 in Life

 

เหงา .. เป็นไปได้?

ทำไมอยู่เมืองไทยขี้เหงากว่าอยู่เมกา? โดยเฉพาะวันอาทิตย์ที่ไม่ต้องไปทำงานที่ไหน หยุดอยู่บ้านแต่มีงานต้องสะสาง (งงไหม? … แสดงว่าถ้าไม่มีงานต้องสะสาง ก็ออกไปตะลอนๆได้ ถ้าเลือกอยากจะไป :P)

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โอ่ว … และอีกอย่างไม่คิดเลยว่าจะมีโหมดที่คิดว่าตัวเอง “ขี้เหงา” หรือ “เหงา” เลย … ไม่เคยคิดว่าขี้เหงา คนอื่นก็มองว่าเราไม่ขี้เหงา

สงสัยว่า จะเป็นเพราะหลายๆปัจจัยและความฟุ้งซ่าน(เป็นบางครั้ง)เน๊อะ … หรือว่า 1/3 life crisis ยังคงดำเนินอยู่?

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ปล. ว่าจะไปโยคะ ก็ยังไม่ได้ไป … “เคย”อยากเรียนรู้หลายอย่างก็เริ่มลางเลือน .. อย่าๆ .. อย่า

 
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Posted by on November 2, 2008 in Thoughts

 

What Where When … How?

Lately, I have trouble figuring out “what” I find enjoyable to do/feel/look forward to …

I keep wondering why I do what I’m doing for … what I want out of life/work ..

 

 

 

hmmmfmm mid life crisis? lol

But my wondering and the trouble also cause me to drag my feet a little (beside my laziness, of course)

 
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Posted by on October 23, 2008 in Thoughts